Menjauh lah rasa hati

25/11/11 Jumaat

Aku tak sangka yang setiap patah patah kata yang kau kata mampu merekahkan tembok yang aku bina antara kau dan aku. Aku kagum. Aku tak sangka yang kau mampu buat aku tafsir balik ayat ayat yang kau kata pada aku. Tahniah sebab berjaya buat aku cuba mengingat nada nada kata kau dan rakam dalam memori aku. Tahniah julang - julang, kau memang pakar kan? Mungkin, tembok aku tak cukup kuat nak nafi balik kata kata kau. Aku berjanji yang aku akan bina sesuatu yang lebih kalis apa saja antara kau dan aku. Ya Allah, alihkan rasa ini dari hati ku ya Allah. Aku percaya setiap apa kejadian di atas muka bumi Mu ini ya Allah ada hikmahnya.         SUSAHNYA NAK BERNAFAS BILA RASA MACAM NI. PENUHNYA HATI AKU DENGAN KAU. PEKATNYA KAU DALAM HATI AKU. MENYURUT LAH, AKU DAH TAK SANGGUP RASA BENDA NI.

#Tidurlah,berdoa agar rasa ini akan hilang esok hari, melarutlah dengan hitam malam ini Sang Rasa.

Hallyu!

Oh hallyu la sangat. Ahaha. Tengok dunia, seorang ditaktor Libya dah mati. Berkurang lagi seorang watak penting atas pentas dunia. Al-Fatihah.

Oh sebelum terlupa, tahniah besar ditujukan buat abang terhebat, Razlan sebab bakal terimah diploma esok hari. Pakai smart smart ya bang.

Buat penyuka setia aku, maaf, hati aku takkan pernah cuba jatuh untuk kau. Biar aku sajalah yang pegang sebelah hati kau. Aku akan simpan sebaik mungkin dan guna bila aku mahu. Maaf sebab aku tak percaya cinta kau.

Buat tetamu comel yang tak diundang, jangan jadi penakut sangat boleh? Kau tu jantan okay, jgn biar ketua puak pijak kepala kau. harap taring ja tajam tapi buang merata. Ibu kau tak ajar eh masa kau baru lahir dulu? Kau kucing yang pelik.

Terpaksa pergi.

Untung lah

Ada orang tu dapat free free je.

Tepung Bungkus eh?

Okay, I have addicted to this one Malay sweetmeat called tepung bungkus. This one mak cik makes it heavenly!

Believes it or not, I never fail to buy it for my buka puasa. Then came one day and I told the mak cik la that her

kuih is very sedap. Then I think she turns so riak then the tepung bungkus is not sedap anymore. Pity me.

Breakfasting at Big Ben! Tipu Cukup!

senyuum jangan tak senyuum!

Haha! Bajet gambaq vintage la pulak kan. Tapi this is the moment when we wait for the passengers train to pass us.(we wish to wave hands at them!) UNFORTUNATELY it was a cargo train so pity us! The sound of the rushing train really makes my adrenaline rush too! Try close your eyes and pretend to absorb the sound of airplanes. It is really a tension released! I love to do it and feel brand nu! Haha. I believe we look 'dry' cause we were fasting! At that time Hyfa and I already bought our sweet sweetmeats for breakfasting in front of the 'Jam Besar' and it was full of fun! I really love Ramadhan because I can save moneey!Kaching! Besides I really hope that I can complete my solat 5 times a day and go for Tarawikh of course. And I always miss my subuh's prayer cause I am definitely NOT a morning person. 

Just now, I bought a nu face toner with hope I can improve my skin condition. Theeeheee.Amin! I nak jugak raya muka berseri-seri! I can’t imagine what this year’s Syawal would be like for me cause assignment bertimbun macam baju bundle kat nitemarket. Strive hard Nurul! I’ve accomplished my mission on Statistic by getting A for Time Series Analysis quiz. BANZAI!!  That’s what you get when you let your heart win haha chait! Tak payah nak Paramore sangat lah kan.

Serius takda mood nak raya.

N-E-R-V-O-U-S-!

So, today I got English presentation. And it was an individual assignment which totally make my hands shaking cold,no they are meant to hold. And I presented my presentation recklessly I bet. I believed I look shaky, because it is hard to speak when your mouth is something wrong like hell. Luckily I can regain my consciousness right away and speaks like a a speaker would. I would rather say, I admired my friends presentation because they are quite creative in presenting. Yang penting! Dah habis dah presentation.PHEW! I dont care what marks I will get cause at least I follow Abah's advices to be myself. I miss Abah. Most importantly, I speaks slower that the first assessment and that's is good! Cakap laju lidah tersasul sasul.

Saya Cinta Mama saya! Dan Bo?

Saya suka share rahsia saya dengan mama saya. She is the Best! I LOVE HER and MISS HER more than anything! Don't worry mama, I will strive hard for my statistic ya. Dayyumn statistic!

Oh ya, hari tu saja surf laman web Xfm tiba tiba nampak lah si mamat yang rambut dia fluffy gila kalah masai singa o! Dan dia sangat adorable macam kucing.MiaO MiaO! Haha motif macam kucing? Nama dia Bo Amir Iqram! Okay fullstop fasal dia. Nak cerita lagu dia memang masyyuk dengan telinga saya!

Nah, meet encik bo!

Tapikan, tapikan, 3 bulan lepas rasanya saya nampak dia dalam majalah Cleo kawan saya. haha. Dan sebab dia jugaklah,saya dengar Thomas Dybdahl. Haa!

Saya sayang kawan saya yang sorang tu sangat sangat.

04/08/2011
Hari ni nak post benda yang merapu rapu tapi penuh makna. Aku mintak maaf sangat sangat sebab aku tak mampu nak puaskan hati semua orang.Tapi bila bila ja kamu perlukan aku, I'll be there right in front you to lend you my heart, ears and shoulders. Dan saya sayang kamu sebagai seorg sahabat sangat sangat. Jadi bila kamu mcm buat tak layan saya rasa awkward gila. Rasa macam nak bumi telan saya sekarang!

Oh ya, cakap fasal hari ni, aku pergi tengok orang buat bedak sejuk. SEJUK sangat tgh bulan mulia ni kan. Takpa tu semua dugaan. Dahla kena flu,tapi takpa I am definitely okay and strong. Aku kena kuat!

Nurul, tolonglah berpijak di bumi yang nyata.

Ya, aku berangan cukup! Yakin lah yang  kisah Cinderella tu tak wujud dan dongengan belaka.Aku takkan pernah suka dia okay. Dan aku akan terus macam ni. Tu lah, dulu dah pesan jangan main dengan api. Tapi kau main jugak kan cik Nurul? Ya ALLAH, ampuni lah hamba Mu ini. 

Yang Di Depan

Jadi, apa yang kat depan kita ya?
sekarang ni aku hanya nampak katil aku depan mata aku,tapi apa yang sebenarnya
ada di depan kita? Yang aku tahu pasti, Ramadhan akan datang lagi. Ya Allah, permudah kan lah segala urusan aku di muka bumiMu ni Ya Allah.

Hari ni jadi apa? Hari ni aku masuk kelas Malaysian Politic pukul 8 pagi.Dan kau memang takkan pernah kisah kan?Aku tengok kau tengok, kau tengok aku tengok. Ah itu sangat biasa!  Dan aku akan selalu bermain dengan api yang macam tu. Lepas tu, masuk kelas English. Madam baaaik sangat.haha. Minggu ni Insya Allah, aku boleh gunakan masa dengan sebaik mungkin. :) Law yang sejam memang aku suka oh dan! Statistic BATAL! Yang kat hujung dunia sebelah sana, aku tak lalu nak text kau pun.

p/s aku dah masuk mimpi kau ke?

Kalau boleh la kan

Kalau boleh, aku nak hidup kat dunia ni dengan senang hati. Tak nak ada satu titik gundah sekali pun yang boleh jatuh kat hati aku.  Kalau boleh, aku nak orang yang aku suka pun suka kat aku. Tapi boleh ke semua tu jadi? Kalau lah ada keajaiban yang datang kata kau suka kat aku, aku mesti ambil rasa tu dan balas balik. Yang itu aku janji pasti.

Kalau boleh, aku nak tahu isi hati semua orang,tapi boleh ke aku nak hadapi nanti? Kau rasa apa? Tapi yang pasti, aku pun tak pasti dengan rasa hati aku sendiri. Sebab aku takut.Aku taknak yang dulu tu jadi lagi. Bila aku kata aku dah lupa dah yang dulu, tapi Hyfa selalu kata, kata lupa,tapi kenapa kau cakap kau dah lupa dia? Tapi betul aku dah lupa. Cuma yang aku ingat, aku dah lupa dia. Tu saja.  Harap aku masih sedar dalam alpa.

padan muka,siapa suruh pergi test pakai selipar?kan dah kalut.

Siapa suruh?

Hampir

Senyum mentari ku senyum
Namun senja tetap datang berpantun
Kau janjikan kegelapan kepada ku
Indah berbeza ditemani bintang

Senyum mentari ku senyum
Namun senja tetap datang berpantun
Kau janjikan kegelapan kepada ku
Indah berbeza ditemani bintang

Teman datang dan pergi
Hati bersepah dengan memori
Hujan berbicara dengan ku
Pesan nya agar ku berdiri

Hilang hampir di telan asmara
Hilang percaya ku pada semuanya
Genggaman erat takkan ku lepas
Biar apapun kata si bintang ku nantikan pagi

Aku hampir di telan asmara
Hilang percaya ku pada semua
Genggaman erat takkan ku lepaskan
Biar apapun kata si bintang ku nantikan pagi

Encik Hujan nyanyi!

p/s aku rasa aku dah punya mentari sendiri :)

Eh,takkan aku jatuh hati dengan kau kott?

SYUKUR! Semua dah selesai.

Card AtM pun dah replaced. Lega gila.

Syukur Ya ALLAH.

Just now my friends accompany me to Maybank and I accompany them having their lunch at Asama Tomyam and I ate their heavenly made pulut mangga.

Diorang hentam somtam dengan tomyum. Dan sumpah memang sedap. Lemak sangat sampai aku muak. Lepas tu singgah mamak minum teh ais.

Aku rindu mama boleh? Bila la boleh balik Selangor ni? Aku bosan sini.

currently my body is having SOAD

NAMPAK HEAVEN SANGAT KAN?

SYASYA DAN SAYA

Time ni tengah muhasabah diri sebab kanan kiri banyak dugaan. Boleh pulak jalan jalan tadi ada gelang tangan sumpah cute dok panggil panggil aku suruh beli dia? Gila apa gelang tu.Kau ingat kau tu comel sangat la nak suruh aku beli kau? Pergi jauh boleh tak? Tapi kau memang comel pun. Harga kau ja tak comel cam kau. Adoi la. I miss abah too. I was wondering if you guys were here I might dont have to feel what i feel right now. 

Found It!

I found my purse already yaaaay!!

Haha HILANG!

Wei datang balik!
Purse aku hilang. Ya Allah bagi aku jumpa balik purse hitam tu.
Sumpah aku rindu. Sesiapa yang ambil, bagi balik. kau ambik la semua duit dalam tu
tapi ic aku,kad atm aku,purse hitam busuk tu aku punya.bagi balik.Kau boleh?

Sampai hati kau curi.Aku sayang, kau tau?

Janji Baru!

Okay, aku tak janji nak mulakan lembaran baru. TAK JANJI okay! Sebab aku tak boleh buang rasa ni lagi. Are you actually serious Cik Nurul? Tapi aku janji yang aku akan selalu cuba untuk memulakan yang baru. Berpijak atas dunia yang nyata. Lupakan King Something, accept other options in my life, buka mata luas luas sebab dunia ni luas.Kalau dunia ni kecil dah tentu aku jumpa kau kan? Tapi kau kat mana? Aku macam dah janji yang aku akan selalu merindui kau but I dont even know your name. Serious LAME cukup.

Kalau aku lepas kau, janji yang kau akan datang balik? janji?

Rahsia Sahabat

Padanya kukatakan
rahsia sahabat
lebih baik dengarkan
dalam isi ceritera
lebih baik rahsia kasih
diserlah dalam
bualan orang lain



Jalaluddin Rumi 

Lurus Tirus

Tajuk posting merapu rapu.
Today I went for outing with roomates. And I cut my hair thin. Rambut tebal macam masai Singa. Haha.

I couldnt bear it so I cut it. And so this is the result :

Aww, sweet isn't? ( T_T)

I told the hairstylist to keep it long but thin. And I am actually ironed it. Notice it?

 And I watch KL Gangster. I love Zizan's humor in it and I actually realise that I did not feel dizzy watching movies in cinema.The ending is seriously urgh! not-so-cool! Abg Long dil actually died.

hai abang long dil, awak mati last last kan?

The infamous hero actually got back in prison after all his 'noble deeds'? I mean after kill all those gangster and you actually got busted? Dude, you are helping the POPO! Dang it! Habis MYR8 member aku.(sebab dia belanja aku tengok wayang.heehee) Kira rugi jugak lah invest untuk benda tak syiok. But! I love the movie because the infamous hero fight very well. Well Done!

Lagi dan Lagi

He's here!
I mean, I could feel him. Haha. Bodoh gila.
I wish I could avoid my mind of him..
Tapi he is too sweet to resist.Haha. Korang memang tak faham.
Kalau satu hari nanti aku dapat peluang tu, memang aku pegang kejap kejap.

Kenapa dengan yang seorang ini aku kalah?

YA ALLAH kenapa aku rasa mati?

Do you?

Do you really love me just because you extremely love me and not because you want me to be your stupid gfs?
I hate you.

Do you really love me just the way I am and hoping you are not loving me just because of my nightlife?
I hate you.

Do you actually love me just because I am being too kind to you pervert.
I hate you damnit!

Do you love me like your heart fall and you are out of no where without gravity?
I hate you.

I hate you silly!

I never thought you could easily ignore me when i actually abandoned it. Is that the only love you had for me? I hate you like thousand time miles stupid.

Si Tua 20

Yay! Aku dah 20 tahun tua.
Ah, aku terlampau takut umur tua.
Tapi hari ini, tepat 1 tengahari panas terik 29 Mei 2011,
Genap umur aku 2o tahun. Ya tak apalah, umur hanya nombor bukan.

Sedihnya tak ada mama abah nak celebrate birthday.

Never.

He's gonna come around soon


                   This hungry heart won't subside

                                        Definitely, I am trying. He's a fool.
                  
                                                          Ya Allah, keep me stronger.Stay with me a little longer.
                                                      

I Want One!; A Nu Sneaker

But wait!
I don't even have an old sneaker to be replaced with the new one and that is what I call seriously pathetic.
Actually I always long for one sneaker and I don't care what is the  brand but it should be something not to expensive and not too cheap cause cheapo things won't last long! And with a pair of feet of mine surely something from night market does not deserve it. It is really annoying when you asked for one then suddenly there is other 3 sneakers first that my father have to buy. (Abah, I ask for it first okay?) Then listen to me. Then suddenly I realize that we are not so rich to buy something like that for 4 pairs all like that and I am actually surrender from wanting it. Maybe I will buy using my own money. That is much noble isn't? I know that every wishes did not COME TRUE unless you work for it.

Oh flu can you stop?

Then I want a skinny jeans or something jeans that fit nicely on my two legs and thighs. Trust me thighs are getting bigger. I always believe that women look more stylish in jeans and I want one like that.Haha. Then good and convincing thought came and telling me that I can have with my own $$ . Haha but until when thoughts? It is actually good to have something like that than people who truly don't understand the whole situation. Skinny jeans don't look good on me. I don't know why, whether it is because of my legs or my butt is too big.haha! or maybe it is just the skinny is too skinny and or maybe it is just my wild imagination. I may look like minah rempit like that.haha.Totally pangkah rempit.

Please dear flu stop!

I WANT THAT PINK OR  ORANGE !^^

HYOYEON'S LOOKS CUTE ISN'T?

THIS WOULD BE FINE.HAHA!

Recently I had dream about I'm getting a nu mobile phone which is in a flip type. Cute meyh. It looks like something from the Japanese drama that used by the whole actor in it.Sponsor eh? haha. It is cute you know. I'll never mention it to my parents cause I am scared it would add their burden.Mine is not so important kan? A dream to just let it be a dream. I will work for it later. These desire make me wake up in reality that fairy tales do not exist. There is no such cute pink motherfairy to come and fulfill my wishes. I really should stop now cause my nose won't help me any longer.

Buy what thou hast no need of and ere long thou shalt sell thy necessities.
Benjamin Franklin

It's Sweet Pumpkin's Time!

This is Mr Lee SungMin. And he is cute and adorable.Isn't he?. I don't know why I suddenly have a crush on him.It is just normal I guess He just seem naive and I don't think people can understand it even if I explain it here. It is just a random likeness. He's there I cheer He's not I still can enjoy my life like he's here.What am I talking about. I hope this would not turn into something big or crazy cause it is hard to bear the likeness I mean like : 1. check his birthday (to see whether it fall the same with you or not)
                 2. oh! check his zodiac too!
                 3. extra checking on his family background which sounds more like stalking
                 4. adoring all his cute acts and smile at them when you think it is cute (UNDENIABLY CUTE ok)
Dang it! why I always hoping for something that is not exist. I always dream to plan ways to reach dreams but will I ever make it?

Mr Lee SungMin, I hope one day you will dissapear from my heart. It is tiring liking you. Arraseo. There is still much more I have to accomplish in my life. Dream for it.

ALL TiME FAVOURiTAS!

 This is the best movie I've ever watch. I love movie with dance elements in it. Dirty Dancing : Havana Nights is so cool. I don't know why although I watched it once but I still remember the scenes. The love story also is so something until it reminisces me to someone. Someone who I love to my whole heart and to others he is just nobody compares to me. For me he is something that other would not notice. I don't know why I keep falling in love with that person.H.E.LP.! Where and when can I meet him. Please dear Ya Allah please make him appear in front of me. Why can't everybody understand?

COMPANiONS DURiNG HARD TiMES

A cheerful friend is like asunny day spreading brightness all around."
- John Lubcock ( English Astronomer )

Alright,no it is a big time for my friends.
I am the kind of girl who loves only one - five friends in a group.
So that I can get to know them better. There are Malay saying goes "Berkawan biar seribu, Berkasih biar seorang" But what if the person have more loves than friends? Is that what we call bullshit. Guys you know what I am talking about.

Now, this is HYFA we were having good times at the beach.Haha. I owed her a lot. Never been to beach before.So here we are at Batu Feringghi.

Hah! And I know I am a bit tanned cause I threw the sunblock away. It is annoying to reapplying when your hands is full of little sand. And this is when both of us are having breezy times on the ferry. Ay Ay Captain!

Haha.I smiled brightly more than the sun. Maybe I will tell more on my school classmate on the next post they are SYAFIKAH,ILMIAH,IZZATY AND LINA. awesome friends.

MY ADDiCTiON : TAUFIK BATISAH

Haha.I am TOTALLY ADDiCTED to this guy since I am 13.

When I can meet him eh? He is just humble and I love him just the way he is.

Mr Taufik Batisah, I heart You the whole world.! Arasseo?

 Actually I've notice him at Bukit Bintang and I was paranoid like hell.

So chances did not come often.They fly and you grab it,you watch it you'll miss it.

I hate the fact I let he walk flawlessly in front of me and my mouth was locked and legs were shaky.

Dear Ya Allah, please let my dream come true once again.I promise to try and hold it.

Hello nu world!!

Alright
I've made a new blog!yay!
And it is quite tough searching and choosing for my blog layout.
I chose owls as the subject.haha.
Literally it is cute.
I hope this blog can help me keep my life's story
as it would.Daa.